Steps to Soul Retrieval

Wanna learn the process that has been saving my life? Keep scrolling.. I am about to share it with you for free because I believe inner peace is the key to world peace & the more of us that transform the closer we will be.

As you probably can tell from the photo, yes- I just returned from Burning Man. After 11 days inside the desert portal I met someone really special. Someone I have been waiting to meet for my whole life: my higher self. Not just a glimpse, not just a taste- but the real deal, in this body.

How did I get here? Firstly, I have to say I am not done nor am I perfect. Now back home the real work begins, to anchor in all that I became while dancing myself home in the dust and repair lifetimes of scar tissue caused by abandoning myself again and again due to the societally engrained belief that I am incomplete.

Years/ lifetimes I spent seeking externally- wrapped in the safety of a lover, inside the status of a name brand corporation, adventuring/ escaping across the globe, all the while numbing the void with food and substances.. Now after spending the last 10 years learning to love myself and consciously reversing the pathway from seeking outside to resting within, I finally am beginning to feel whole.

Below I share with you the steps of how I do it, a summary of years of studies condensed into 5 steps.. I was always searching for the specfic pathway of how to be happy, the intersection between science and spirit, and I could never find it. So I discovered it inside the truth point of where the worlds ancient and modern transformational modalities align on the topic of transformation.

So here it is, the steps that have been saving my life. I share them with you in hopes that they will provide you with a piece of your personal soul retrieval puzzle:

1) Be aware of the lower aspects of yourself surfacing- ex. triggers, negative beliefs, dense emotions.
2) Take full responsibility for it as an old version of yourself ready to be transcended, accept that it is showing you the exact spot in which you are still fragmented and where and how you get to fill yourself with your own love. 
3) Go to the root- Pinpoint the core of this surfaced symptom, the origin point. Ex. A reaction of jealousy being caused by a root fear of abandonment, caused by abandoning the Self and then projecting the fear onto another. 
4) Neutralize it by bringing in your own love in the exact way you are being shown you need it. Ex. No longer abandoning yourself, instead reclaiming yourself with my own love and presence. 
5) Pour in this specific recipe of love directly to the origin point until the symptom is gone. Then shift into the version of yourself that is free from this lower aspect and is now whole in this area.

Feel free to comment with your questions, I love answering them. So much so that I am starting a virtual family to hold each other through the transformational process because having a community was my tipping point.. receiving regular guidance from those farther ahead, unconditional love when I am at rock bottom contemplating my existence (still happens), accountability holding me to who I am becoming, and the reminder that I am not going crazy- I’m just waking up. I know not every city out there has these communities established, and like I said, it has been/ still is paramount to my evolution, so I will be proving one virtually :) For more on this program, click here.

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7 Steps to Wholeness

The villainous witch, the destructive bitch, and the fearful child underneath it all… I have been silent these few months as I face these parts of myself I kept hidden for lifetimes underneath a facade of “everything is perfect.”

Until now, at this point in my awareness and commitment to myself there is no more room to hide, the mask has been stripped and I am raw. Now I fully surrender to these icky sticky sides of myself. Now the real work begins.

Here is the process that is helping me shed these layers and return to wholeness, I share in hopes that it will work be able to support you as well.

When we are creating pain or separation in our lives, seeing through the lens of fear, or seeking outside for wholeness..
1. Become aware- observe verses engage.
2. Take full responsibility for what you are creating.
3. Ask yourself – Why am I doing this? How am I trying to protect myself/ control life? What fears are driving this?
4. Feel it. Feel it all in its entirety.
5. Integrate the lesson being revealed.
6. Forgive yourself for your previous lack of awareness.
7. Shift into your new lens. Shift into love.

You do not have to stay in the dark. We shed light on our shadows to bring them to completion. You do not have to over process. You just have to take responsibility and commit to shifting into a new operating system.

Thank you for your courage. The more of us who shed and shift, the lighter it gets for all of us. Thank you, thank you, thank you. 

I am "The One"

Somewhere along the history of our time, this definition lost its original meaning. Relationships have changed from a healthy bond between self-sufficient individuals to a deep dependency between two people saturated with attachment and lack. The latter approach is due entirely to a missing step in the process: Becoming whole and compete in our own skin before seeking partnership and looking inside for answers.

Hold your horses, no need to freak! I am not saying this is the case for every relationship, but let’s put it this way: how many people do you know who have put in the time, money, energy and commitment to truly finding themselves, clearing away past programming, and becoming their greatest potential? While this number is rising rapidly, we are still living in a society drenched with dependency, self-loathing, and projecting our emotions outward.

Just turn on the news for the most explosive example of this: War. War is caused by the projection of internal pain and blockages outward, transforming into violence and hatred. This primal projection lands on the easiest available target: religion, gender, sexuality, and race. War is not caused by people authentically hating others; War is caused by the inability to effectively communicate with someone else due to the war going inside the human mind.

Now let’s take a look at romantic relationships, after all that’s the area we all crave at our core. We all crave love, support, and affection. We all crave that feeling of being desired by someone, feeling safe and secure in a relationship, and feeling true intimacy with a partner. This may sound all fun and dandy but do you see the underlying theme here? Do you see the similarity between romantic relationships and war?

If I am saying that war is caused by projecting unresolved emotions outward, this is actually no different to the wars existing in relationships. They are both caused by the failure of looking inward, the failure of becoming whole and complete within ourselves first.

All relationship wars and battles can be resolved by this sacred tool: Looking inward. By taking responsibility as the creator of the missed communication, releasing victim mentality, and acknowledging how the other person is reflecting of our own internal war.
For those of you hearing this concept for the first time, start practicing by catching yourself before you react to an external trigger. In this gap period, ask yourself where is this coming from? How could this possibly be coming from me? The next step would be to find the internal reflection that is being magnified by this external trigger.

Here is an example of a reflection that came up for me my entire dating life, from 13 to just 6 months ago. I had a pattern of attracting men who made me feel small, unworthy, and undervalued. Why? Because I was lacking my own self-worth, I did not value myself, and I wasn’t living at my fullest potential. Once I began to work on my own relationship with myself, I immediately started attracting men who treated me the way I always deserved to be treated! They began to reflect my own internal self-love and self-worth. You see, people can only treat you the way you treat yourself. You are the center of your solar system; everything has been created for your evolution, for your growth. You are your own everything. You are “the one.”

 

Becoming my Own Soul Mate

I am learning to become my own soul mate, my own best friend, and my own everything.

Like many of us, I struggle being alone at times, both in public and in private. In public, while waiting for a friend at a restaurant or a bar my mind often goes crazy with ego fueled thoughts like, “what if people think I am a loser for being alone? Can people tell how uncomfortable I am? What if someone I used to date sees me here all by myself and thinks I must be crazy for being 27 and still single?”

The moment that the flood of thoughts become too much, I instinctively reach for protection: my beloved iPhone, and immediately a wave of comfort rushes over me. What is it that our phones do in these moments? I have done a lot of thinking and observing on this and I believe we escape into our phones when we feel uncomfortable out in the world, when we start to believe the stories in our heads about what people may be thinking. The reality is that nearly 99/100 times the stories are entirely false. The other people are too busy worrying about themselves to even care.

Using my phone as a comfort blanket is no different than me feeling exponentially more confident going out to a party with a friend by my side. These are all external energies that we rely on for comfort, yet they are merely reflections of ourselves so really, we have all the comfort inside of us already.

In September I am challenging myself to go to India alone. I am going to rid myself of all of these external comfort blankets and become entirely okay being alone, without the reassurance or confidence booster of technology or a best friend.

I am committed to becoming my own everything, to being 100% okay alone in my own skin and not believing my own stories about what people may think. It is when we love ourselves unconditionally, that we attract magic into our lives, and I’m committed to living a life full of magic.

The Inner Work 101

What do you think are our most common limiting beliefs?

Drumroll please:
– I am not worthy of love
– I am not good enough to have what I want
– I am too different so I cannot connect
– What I want and need isn’t available to me

Where the eff did these beliefs come from? Well, we were born completely neutral energy, a clean slate, and then a core trauma occurs. It could be as tiny as your cat running away or as big as the loss of a loved one. No matter what the trauma is, our reaction is all the same: We take the blame, we believe that it is all our fault. We then develop a specific lens in which we see the world where we recreate situations over and over so we can prove this belief to be true.

Here’s the thing.. this core belief can go away just as easy as it was created because it is not true, it is a lie, an illusion.

First, identify it by asking the following questions:
– What is the way you want to make an impact in the world?
– What is the belief you have about your inability to do so?

The way you feel about giving your gift to the world is the same thing stopping you from everything: optimal health, love, financial freedom, all of it.

Then stalk the shit out of yourself so when it comes up you can observe it versus let it run the show. Stalk your thoughts, words and actions that stem from this belief.

What questions do you have about this process?

Welcome in the New Paradigm of "Work"

When I say the word “work” what comes to mind?

The most common reactions are:

– The way in which we make an income
– Reaching external goals
– Physical exercise

I am here to share that most of the hours of my day are spent doing none of the above… and guess what, this way has provided me with more financial freedom, bliss, fulfillment, a better body, and overall success than any of those old paradigm beliefs ever did.

Your eyeballs are in the right place because I am about to share the style of work that has transformed my life from dull and numb to complete ecstasy.
– Remembering who I am in every moment: a creator of my reality worthy of everything I want in life and more
– Stalking and releasing any thoughts, words, or actions that are not aligned with this truth
– Opening my heart to deeper levels of love and bliss
– Aligning to my purpose

Here is the lightbulb moment: You don’t have to work hard. You are not wired to work 40 hour work weeks, sit in an office, or exert energy on anything that isn’t a fuck yes from your core.

Instead, we work smart:
– Taking care of yourself first and foremost
– Doing the INNER work- prioritizing your mind, body and spirit before any external project is even entertained
– Creating a business which gives your gifts to the world

If you are ready to smart work and say goodbye to hard work you know where to find me.

Matrix Midwife

For years I hid my wild self from you & from the world
Paralyzed from fear of being truly seen, unmasked & naked
Powerless from fear of rejection, of failure, of success.

Until one day this mask began to deteriorate my body
So I dedicated myself to shedding it all, layers after suffocating layer
Now I am liberated from my amor of I am not enough
Now I am free from my cage of I am not worthy.

Now I stand here in my power, here to awaken you to yours
Here to say that you have a blinding light inside you
That the world is hungry for, ravenous really.

Here is the thing, we have all been given a single piece of the puzzle
For our world to shift from dark to light, asleep to awake
Your piece, your light, is needed to make the transition

Are you ready to discover your piece, the diamond inside,
Ready to be magnified & exploded into the world
So that you can find your message, your voice, your tribe?

You are in the right place my love
This is my puzzle piece, I am a matrix midwife
Here to awaken and activate those starving at the core
To discover and embody their unique mission on the planet
You are not alone, there is a whole family waiting for you
Thank you for your courage, I love you so fucking much